Date : Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Time : 10:57 PM

Title :

[ Confusion ]


Reality. Fact. Truth. I'm not a practical person....so, yeah. I don't really hold on to these "principles" But, in life we gotta face reality...coz life IS reality =.=


Confusion..between my beliefs, my experience, my feelings and..truth. Which should I believe in? I believe only myself, what I know and what I went through. I truly believe in this, " seeing is believing" How would you react if somebody tells you that pigs are thin? Oh well, there IS a possibility there... because this world is full of weird things and happenings. How could that be NOT possible?

Confused...and frustrated. Confused between what I believe in and what other people believes. Why should I care what they believe in? Because...it involves me. They believe in what they SAW. They see it with their own eyes. How would I know whether they DID see it with their own eyes? I don't have eyes that has the potential to see things beyond human limits. Coz, I'm human. ( crap) Yet, there is an invention where you can see things a thousand miles away.. but I don't have it. Because, I don't have MONEY. ( oh my, its getting more of SELF-Q&A here)


Could pigs fly? I don't know. There IS a possibility. But that topic is way far off from science. ( I'm not talking science here.) There are OTHER things..which are highly potential to happen. How I'm supposed to diminish all my beliefs just because of...I've been told that my beliefs are lies. LIEs? SO, I've been living a lie...? I don't know. I will not believe others easily. Unless there's a proof. Unless I see it by MYSELF.


But...it's so hard to...decide/judge on which to believe in. Because what I believe all the while were so.....completely true. So emotionally true. I see it with my own eyes, I felt it with my own heart, I hear it with my own ears. How could these emotions play a trick on me? Or I'm just plain dumb? Or I'm blind? Love is blind ( famous quote) Yeah, love is definitely blind. ( lol?) While what I've been acknowledged was.....way,way too highly potential to happen. Plus, there's a coincidence where it supports WHAT I've been told. Coincidence? Not total coincidence....there's only a little hint that it might be coincidence. I think, think and think...whether it has been misunderstood? Misunderstandings are likely to happen all the time. So yeah, now I'm stuck between my beliefs, truth and misunderstanding.


So, tell me. Which should I choose?......





I choose....myself. My beliefs. I believe myself...=)



Even if I was wrong...I'll understand..