Date : Thursday, May 8, 2008
Time : 8:23 PM

Title :

I see disappointed faces all around me..

I see anger in them..

I see all my friends with a sad face ..

I feel regret...

I wish I could turn back the clock...

I know it's useless..

I know it's too late..

But now everything and everyone has changed..

Gone was the girl who always smile and would laugh at anything..

Sweet times and good times are long gone..

All I could do is listen..

How I wish they could keep their mouth shut..

And forget about everything..

But whatever I hope is hopeless..

No more freedom..

No more happiness..

I can only hear angry voices..

I feel that I'm like a stranger in the family..

Too shame to talk to anyone..

Everyone started to look down on me..

At least, I have my best friends by my side..

But.. nothing can cover the hole in my heart..

Fat, salty tears pouring down on my cheek..

Time. Time will tell..

Time will cure..

Time will bring back my happiness..

Time may cover the hole in my heart..

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OH NO! WHAT ABOUT MY MATHS?! WHAT IF I FAIL?

EHH NOO...!! HOW ON EARTH I'M GONNA CONCENTRATE ON MY PMR??!!

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KERRIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAKE UPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Helo?? 5.30 AM ALREADY !! DON'T WANNA GO TO SCHOOL IZZIT??

Huh? school? 5.30?? oh. crap.

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Haiz..I can't stop worrying...ok la, maybe I should not worry too much...but I have to be careful..=.=!

Today after school...while my uncle was driving half way....suddenly Cik Eliza walked towards the car and the car is moving!... and I went like.. " WHAT THE ..... WHAT ARE YOU DOING??? YOU WANNA COMMIT SUICIDE IZZIT?" Actually if she did kena also nvm one. Because my uncle drive very slow and safe one. x)

Then my uncle went SLOWER until....the car stops....open the window and Cik Eliza looked at me....and my uncle asked her " Yes, what's the matter?" Then she said..." Oh, sorry...I thought you were that parent...I see wrongly...sorry ya.." ( the moment she said that...I silently said to myself that I'll be the next one to see her") Alright...then..we were on our way to home again..

My uncle asked me..

He: " Eh...what happened to that girl and the parents?"

Me : " Don't know.." ( I don't wanna tell! Who knows what'll happen to me...)

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When we're almost home, all of a sudden my uncle said... " Look! The car behind us was the girl and the parent we saw just now.."

I looked behind..and I was like...ok....shocked...didn't believe it until...........the car passed us.....

It's hard to forget when I saw the car passed us...

I saw the girl sitting behind... crying alone.. staring at nowhere.. her expression on her face like a lifeless human..

But I could see it through her eyes... ( i don't have a pair of x-ray eyes pls.)

Haiz. I know her...she's my friend. Had been classmates when we were in form 1.


Everything happened so fast. Too much to receive. EH PLEASE. I'M NO ELECTRICAL INSULATOR. I CAN'T resist too much shock in two days. Too much news . Too much rumors. Too much problems. Too much worries. Too much to think about. Too much sad news.

All my friends keep telling me to be careful..to avoid from going near him. haiz?

Fine. The result was...I don't wanna think somemore on maths paper 2. I had enough. I put down my pencil and stop thinking for a second. If not, I may go out of my mind.

SO. WHAT I WANNA DO NOW IS..........

Eat as usual.
Sleep as usual.
Watch TV as usual.
Lazy as usual.
Revise as usual.
Play the piano as usual.
Talk as usual.
Go to school as usual................................................

SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT I CAN'T RESIST myself from........ ARGH!! If anyone could wash my heart to make it cleaner... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Oh. I forgot. I did wrote about my dream ..............................BAD DREAM. FOR MORE THAN TWO TIMES I'VE BEEN DREAMING THE SAME DREAM. It's like I'm seeing the future. AND NOW IT started.........already. On my friends.